Fade Into The Night

I only seem to hurt the ones
Who share their love with me,
Maybe it’s all too heavy to carry.
The only thing I can think
to do is just disappear,
And be out of sight.
So, I turn off my light,
And fade into the night
Until I can get things right.
I’m not doing this to neglect,
I just need some time to reflect.
So I can understand who I am.
I’m putting myself through the test,
And I hope my transformation
Will continue to manifest.
I don’t want to laugh
If there’s no joy behind it.
I don’t want to show happiness
When I can’t seem to find it.
I don’t want to live a life
If I’m not the one who designed it.